My Next 30 Years....

Tim McGraw put it best when he released the song "My Next Thirty Years"....figure out where I go from here. I have always loved this song and now the day has come where this song means more to me than it ever will. I said to myself yesterday, "wow, I have been on this earth, in this life for 30 years already." I remember being so young thinking, "Gosh 30 is so old and so far away, I can't picture myself being 30". Well it showed up before I knew it and I looked in the mirror and here I am...30 :o).

I know I know age is just a number but it's more than that. It's an accomplishment, it's years of life, years of experience and its a chapter closing and a chapter opening. I watch shows like Sex In the City with a profound parallel of my own life now, when I used to only watch for fun I now relate to it. I, just like many other girls out there envisioned a life for myself that is not even remotely close in reality, in ways it's so much better than I imagined, in other ways I won't lie, it's slightly disappointing.....however light has shown me some wonderful things at the end of the tunnel <3.

In a way, one life is closing and another is beginning. My next thirty years will be the BEST OF MY LIFE; I'm going to continue growing as the individual I am proud to say I am. I will open myself up to new possibilities and while I do so with a little bit of fear, I won't let that fear prevent me from saying, "At least I tried." I've learned that all you can do is try, and that there is no shame in failure....as long as you don't make the same mistake twice :o). In 30 years, I have been blessed with and built an amazing support system with friends and family that I thank God for everyday...and if there were a better word than just THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU; I would say it. Although I feel here, that less is more.

I think life takes us on so many paths with so many choices that sometimes come easy and other times are the most difficult decisions you will ever make. Each choice is lined with experience, sometimes regret, sometimes pride....but no matter the lining, it's always silver; there's always something to walk away with. Something that even though you forget it on the surface...molds your everyday life from that point on. I've made decisions that have led me to this very moment in my life that were a combination of gut feeling, emotion, life lessons and lastly support of those around me.  I'm ready for the next chapter, and though I feel I might know where it's going I'm just going to take it one day at a time because at the end of the day that's all we have is one day at a time. We aren't guaranteed another day or even another minute and we never know what is ahead at the turn of the next piece of time......