No stone left unturned...

Well I'm a bit rusty here since it's been over 2 months since my last post, and trust me it's not due to laziness. The last two months have been very busy with work, and the invitation business, plus the usual holiday festivities have occupied much of my time as you can imagine and can most possibly relate to.  So since I last gave you something to read about, I gave thanks as usual with my family up in freezing cold Big Bear Lake, California. This year proved to be quite the party with about 30 people in attendance, while it was a good time, I definitely prefer it to go back to the usual 15-20 :o)

In addition to Thanksgiving another one of my beautiful friends married the love of her life. Stephanie Gall became Mrs. Matthew Dante in early November, another beautiful celebration that goes down in the books!

So the month of November flew by and before I knew it I was decorating for Christmas....something I chose to completely depart from last year due to my scrooged mood ha ha. But this year although most would think even 2011's experiences would get me down in the dumps, I chose the higher road. I decided to host my annual girls Christmas celebration which in turn FORCED me to decorate and partake in the typical holiday cheer. So I hung my stockings and put up my pathetically fake Charlie Brown of a Christmas Tree, hung my lights and enjoyed the touch of Christmas I pulled together. I had 4 of my closest girlfriends over the following weekend for a potluck, gift exchange, wine and laughter. I don't believe we've laughed that hard in a long time. And of course the more the wine poured down the pipes, the looser the conversation flowed, spilling "secrets", sharing stories: the best of memories with one another. Was definitely one of the best of times, from the outside I'm sure we sounded like a bunch of cackling chickens, however only we are to understand our own language talking over one another and laughing.....nothing else seems to matter in these instances. I enjoyed Christmas celebrations with my godparents and even slipped in a quick Vegas trip....sometimes you just can't pass it up especially when you come home with this:

Christmas was upon me before I knew it, my shopping was done early this year which was a relief, I even chose to wrap as I bought which seemed silly to some. But they sure weren't laughing when I had nothing to wrap and they had saved all their gifts to wrap at once only days before Christmas Eve ... HA HA HA I say! So Christmas eve was a bit different this year, spent with my parents and brother. The last time it was just the four of us was about 16 years ago and to be honest it was probably the best one in a long time! We enjoyed eachother's company, laughing, reminiscing, playing games, enjoying a delicious meal at Lazy Dog along with little Oscar of course. Chrismas Day was another intimate day just the 4 of us enjoying brunch and a lovely surf and turf dinner.....sorry if I make you hungry right now:

 

It was as delicious way to end the holiday...to say the least!!! I hope you all had a wonderful holiday and as the new year approaches take a moment to think about 2011, the good, the bad, the lessons learned, the friends made, those we let go of.....think about what you want to do in 2012 differently, or what you want to accomplish....and do it! It's a fresh start,  a fresh year to make things happen.....

So make it happen!

Oh Vegas...u sure came home with me this time!

So Vegas at 30 years old is really no different than Vegas at any other age. I recently went to Vegas for my friend Stephanie's bachelorette party with 12 of my girlfriends. And while this trip couldn't have come at a better time, it sure didn't let me leave in Vegas what happened in Vegas!

3:30 couldn't have come any faster for me to meet up with ash and Theresa so we could get to the airport and have our first cocktail before boarding our plane. The flight went smoothly, our luggage made it there safely, however who knew the cab line would be our first hostile encounter. Our eagerness got the best of us as we stood on the numbered circle marked 3....as in cab 3. As a cab rolls up a lady hops in the cab in front of us as her boyfriend comes running with a airport employee yelling at us to get back in line. The young man hops in the cab flipping us off and calling us line cutters. Who knew we were at Disneyland!?!? We finally make to our hotel about an hour later, get ourselves dolled up to meet the other girls for night number one of fun.

We get to the club all fancied up, get set up at our table at Encore nightclub which by the way I strongly recommend to anyone. Best club by far!!!! Except for when you slip and fall eh em. I'm getting to that fabulous moment. So nights going well, we team up with a bachelor party...dancing, enjoying every moment. Me of course being the mother hen realize two of my chicks are missing so I go in search. I find out one went back to the room...ok whew one is safe at the coop. The other I find near the restroom so I grab her and head back to the table. As I follow her back I have a fabulous encounter with the marble floor. It was not graceful by any means...I'm pretty sure the spilled drink on the floor, and the 4 inch heels were not a good combination unless it were to spell disaster. Luckily I had a sassy outfit on as my foot flew forward and my body flew up in the air, slamming on the floor in front of Surrenders finest. I laid there a few minutes wondering what was broken .... It's amazing how pain takes over embarrassment. I eventually allowed someone to help me up as I hobbled back to my table and announced party was over...I'm no longer flirty and thirty but instead nerdy and thirty.

By the time I had made it to the room, my ribs and shoulder were red and purple. I popped some Advil, put my friend to bed and while wincing in pain laid down realizing I had one more day and night to somehow get through. The next morning my entire body was stiff, sore and purple. I didn't let it get me down...I got up had some breakfast and started gambling :)

Needless to say I came home with bruised ribs and what happened in Vegas did not stay in Vegas...in fact it's still with me almost two weeks later.

It was a pleasure as always Vegas!

My mother's daughter...

Mother's and daughters have such a special bond...it's simple, it's natural, it's fragile and it constantly grows and changes with time and life.

I've seen my relationship with my mother change and progress and grow into something far more precious than anything I have every known (thus far). My mother isn't just my mother but she's my best friend. To this day she still comforts me when I'm down, nurses me when I'm not feeling well, offers advice I won't find in a book and loves me with all she has.  As my best friend, she shares ridiculous laughter at jokes only her and I would find funny, she carries on long text message conversations that simply make no sense to my poor dad (he prefers the old fashion telephone still xoxo) and she's the best shopping partner anyone could have. I still ask her questions about finances, love, life and even still will ask her which boots look better with what I'm wearing. I'll never stop needing her and that's what I love the most because no matter when or where or for what .... she's always there.

Life has no guarantees I know this, and I take everyday to remind myself how lucky I am to have what I have and who I have in my life. While I know some people aren't quite so lucky to have ever had such a special bond, or perhaps to have such a special bond cut short....I can only pray one day they can have the same relationship with their own daughters down the road.

So when someone says, "you looked just like your mother when you did that" or "you are just like your mother" ... know that you are being paid the best compliment you could be given; after all she raised you didn't she?

Getting Back on the Horse...

There's something about starting over...it's bittersweet. It's exciting because you have a chance to just revamp, renew and enjoy the unknown that is ahead of you.  It's somber because the disappointment that led you to this moment hurts and crushes a little bit of the faith and hope you put into something that you thought was right but turned out to be unbelievably wrong.

The older I get, the more difficulty I face regarding relationships. I know it's ok to be wrong, I mean we are all wrong possibly on a daily basis with decisions we make. Some are big some are small but most of the time we are so easily accepting of the wrong decisions.  But decisions of the heart?  Those are not so easy to accept. You try to convince yourself that you are not wrong at all because your heart feels a certain way.  The saying, Follow Your Heart isn't always the right thing to do. I think the heart feels appropriately but just because the heart feels something doesn't mean you should follow it....especially if it leads you down a dark road where you end up losing yourself. 
You find this amazing place where balance takes over and things seem calm and where they should be. You look around and while you are alone you are able to find complete happiness.  That's where I was. It took me a year but that's where I was....and then something happens. An unexpected character interrupts your story.  But you find it's a good interruption, something that adds to the smile on your face.  And while past experiences make you a bit skeptical and keep your most important pieces hidden under the surface....you start to feel like this could be something great; something different, something amazing and something not to be feared.  The process or idea of opening up your life is scary and it takes time and caution as I figured out very quickly and almost against my will.  It's like your heart wants to give in but your head just won't let you - a prisoner to yourself.  Time passes as this person makes you feel comfortable, gives you reassurance, says all the right things, has all the right moves - painting a picture you never imagined you would like but instead you realize its a masterpiece not to be disregarded but instead appreciated and accepted and held onto because it's worth far more you could have ever imagined.  Suddenly the spark hits and against your heads will....your heart takes over.  It's the moment you stop being afraid and you let it all go, again against your will - still a prisoner to yourself :o) 

Sometimes you find the person who appreciates you, treats you with respect and honesty and gives you everything and more.....other times you find the person that was destined to crush you and not feel at all remorseful for it....Sometimes things work out and other times they don't. Whether it's 6 years or 4 months ... it hurts just the same. You ask yourself a million questions wondering what went wrong, what you could have done differently, what could have been said, etc. You lose sleep trying to solve a puzzle you don't have the pieces to.  Then one day you wake up and you are ok....the pain gets lesser and lesser and you wake up one day ready to try it all over again....this time with a little more hope and a little more faith than you ever thought you would have again.

Love at First Sight...

I didn't actually believe in this statement until that beautiful day in May when Benjamin R. Tryfon came into my life (our lives for those of my best friends reading this....who share the same obsession for this little boy as I do).  It honestly seemed like the longest possible day because the anticipation and excitement was so overwhelming for me, let alone Elissa and Chris waiting to meet their beautiful baby boy. I worked through lunch and made arrangements with my boss to leave the office early so I wouldn't miss the magic moment.  And I'm pretty sure I was driving at an incredible speed yet hitting every damn red light and turning on every street that was jam packed with traffic.....but don't worry little Ben was super stubborn knowing so many people were waiting for his arrival and weren't yet all at the hospital yet...he stayed put for quite awhile :o).  We all gathered at the hospital trying as patiently as possible (which by the way lacked patience on every level) .... pacing back and forth in the waiting room, reading gossip magazines to get our minds off things, constantly waiting for some kind of update and even going upstairs to cup our ears to the delivery door to hear the slightest noise of a baby whimper or cry. A couple hours passed before confirmation from my "brown mother" aka Mrs. Randall aka Ben's grandma after we instructed her she had scrubs on so she should go listen against the door b/c she won't get into trouble.....She comes back squealing "He's hear...I heard him cry" (I just got goosebumps and my eyes are watering remembering the moment haha). 

We ran downstairs and again tried to patiently wait to now meet him and see Elissa and Chris. Family first of course so Ashley, Lacey and I stood very antsy in the waiting room waiting for the green light to meet our little Ben....soon to become the little love of our lives.  We opened the door and there it was .... a vision so surreal that it almost just took your breath away. Elissa lay there holding the most precious baby I had seen and Chris was smiling ear to ear. I didn't know what to do except just stare at him and take that moment in and realize how quickly I had just fallen in love with this little boy the moment I saw him. After Ashley and Lacey held him, he finally made it to my arms and I have held many babies in my arms, but this one was different.  Instantly I melted as I just stared at him and loved on him....at that moment he had me. 

 

He's growing so quickly it's almost sad but at the same time it's the most amazing thing to be a part of.  I try to see him at least once a week so I don't miss a thing and of course Elissa is saying I spoil him WAY too much .... but honestly what's an auntie to do except that?

It's amazing...another chapter in life as I watch my best friend become a mother and she's so natural and good at it. It's second nature to her really....and I have no doubt in my mind this little boy is by far the luckiest little guy there is and this world and my life thus far is a much better place with him in it <3

 

 

My Next 30 Years....

Tim McGraw put it best when he released the song "My Next Thirty Years"....figure out where I go from here. I have always loved this song and now the day has come where this song means more to me than it ever will. I said to myself yesterday, "wow, I have been on this earth, in this life for 30 years already." I remember being so young thinking, "Gosh 30 is so old and so far away, I can't picture myself being 30". Well it showed up before I knew it and I looked in the mirror and here I am...30 :o).

I know I know age is just a number but it's more than that. It's an accomplishment, it's years of life, years of experience and its a chapter closing and a chapter opening. I watch shows like Sex In the City with a profound parallel of my own life now, when I used to only watch for fun I now relate to it. I, just like many other girls out there envisioned a life for myself that is not even remotely close in reality, in ways it's so much better than I imagined, in other ways I won't lie, it's slightly disappointing.....however light has shown me some wonderful things at the end of the tunnel <3.

In a way, one life is closing and another is beginning. My next thirty years will be the BEST OF MY LIFE; I'm going to continue growing as the individual I am proud to say I am. I will open myself up to new possibilities and while I do so with a little bit of fear, I won't let that fear prevent me from saying, "At least I tried." I've learned that all you can do is try, and that there is no shame in failure....as long as you don't make the same mistake twice :o). In 30 years, I have been blessed with and built an amazing support system with friends and family that I thank God for everyday...and if there were a better word than just THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU; I would say it. Although I feel here, that less is more.

I think life takes us on so many paths with so many choices that sometimes come easy and other times are the most difficult decisions you will ever make. Each choice is lined with experience, sometimes regret, sometimes pride....but no matter the lining, it's always silver; there's always something to walk away with. Something that even though you forget it on the surface...molds your everyday life from that point on. I've made decisions that have led me to this very moment in my life that were a combination of gut feeling, emotion, life lessons and lastly support of those around me.  I'm ready for the next chapter, and though I feel I might know where it's going I'm just going to take it one day at a time because at the end of the day that's all we have is one day at a time. We aren't guaranteed another day or even another minute and we never know what is ahead at the turn of the next piece of time......

Just another full weekend...

Wow, two angel games, a little shopping with my favorite shopping partner (aka Mom), a little bowling and a fabulous night for yet another glorious 30th birthday celebration with the people that make me smile....I'd say my life is anything but dull and boring and absolutely full of life, laughs and continuous moments turned into memories. As me and the beautiful women in my life continue to get older, we watch one another take on new roles, face new challenges and experience things through one another in a fun and vicarious way. Yes some may be new parents, some may be taking the role of man and wife soon, some may just be starting new journey's looking for the person to start a new life with, some preparing for the role as parents as we speak....but all in all you throw us all in a room together for any kind of gathering and we are all still the same people we have always known and loved. Always, laughing, smiling, sharing what's new, taking pictures, making memories, dancing it up...all in all we still all are rooted back to who we have always been no matter where in life's journey we are.

The common ground we share is that fact that we are all on the journey together and I wouldn't have it any other way <3

 

A New Life on the Way....

It's always really exciting to hear when someone is having a baby....no matter who it is. But that excitement goes beyond any normal level when it's your best friend.  It was one thing when she called on Valentines Day two years ago and left a voicemail that scared me more than anything. I could tell she had been crying and she said, "Where are you? Why aren't you answering your phone? I NEED to talk to you!" I called her back semi-afraid of what she needed to tell me which in fact turned out to be that she had gotten engaged hahaha.  I think after I told her how scared I was listening to her voicemail, she took it down a notch when telling me that her and Chris were going to have a baby.  But it really didn't matter how mellow she was in telling me, I was excited beyond belief, however I couldn't express it because I WAS at work :o). In any case, we are just a couple weeks away from meeting this beautiful baby boy that will be more than spoiled by his family and all his aunties.

I wanted to capture a few shots for Chris and Elissa just as a treasure to keep and of course we laughed hysterically during most of it but I managed to get a few good shots.  I can't wait to meet little Ben ... he better be REAL prepared for all the love he's going to endure <3.

And my family grows by 1....

March 26th, 2011 my brother and his wife renewed their vows to one another one year after getting married in an intimate affair on March 25th, 2010.  Family and friends gathered together to witness the renewal of the binding love between the two of them and pretty much nothing could go wrong....well except for Jeff (aka their "minister") being held up on a plane with no pilot because the computer systems went amuck...but him and Jenelle eventually made it! I took a few moments to take in the visuals that lay before me and I realized that sometimes we have to just stop look around and take a picture, not just with your camera but in your mind. Embrace the vision of love, happiness with the sounds of laughter and chatter. Watching the people I care about so happy filled me with this uplifting feeling that I will never forget...I will say it over and over again as you read these blogs that I literally have THE MOST AMAZING family.  The way they laugh, the way they smile, the way they love with everything they have, the way they support, the way they appreciate life ... Every member of my family amazes me in one way or another and I know that if a day ever came that I had nothing but my family that would still make me the luckiest, richest person I know. 

I smiled as I watched my uncle twirl the glowing bride around on the dance floor...I smiled as I watched my brother so handsome and so grown up converse with everyone, all with this big smile on his face and his chest out so proud of this love he had found and will have for the rest of his life and quite honestly HAD for most of his life. 

Let me take a few steps back here...Aaron and Cara met years ago in grade school, our families shared holidays, vacations to Vegas, Laughlin, camping to name a few. They were destined from the beginning...and while they tested fate many times from the ages of 13 to the age of 30 they realized it was meant to be After All.  There's something about destiny, fate, and soul mates that is so magical....the twists, the turns, the ups, the downs, the laughs, the cries, the tests, the trials....none of it matters because whats meant to be will be. It's no wonder they chose After All as their wedding song: 

"After all the stops and starts
We keep coming back to these two hearts
Two angels who've been rescued from the fall
And after all that we've been through
It all comes down to me and you
I guess it's meant to be
Forever you and me
After all"

As I watched them renew their vows smiling it all felt more right than it ever had before. They danced their first dance and smiled and whispered to one another. 

Life is funny, it's funny because at the end of the day things JUST WORK. Whether you think it's been a bad day, or you maybe got frustrated about something, or you cried a good cry for no reason you can explain....it kind of all is worth it for moments like this when NOT ONE THING in the whole world seems wrong: It's exactly how it should be....it's just right!

 

 

 

Congratulations Aaron & Cara...

Here's to a life full of laughs, love, happiness, health and wealth!

Love your Shelly :o)

Eyes Wide Shut...

Your first thought was probably Tom Cruise and Nicole Kidman's movie but no lol...the title is representative of that feeling of thinking you had it all figured it out, thinking you really felt you were in a place where you know who you are, you know who the people in your life are, you feel almost at peace a little bit because for once there are no questions lingering that keep you wondering if you are making good or bad decisions, wondering if you are putting the right people ahead of the wrong ones, opening up to those deserving of you, putting it all on the line for the ones you hope might do the same for you....and it's that moment you realize that well, you were wrong.  It's that moment you close your eyes because you had gotten to a point where you weren't afraid to see what you saw so you kept them open ready take it all in....but the moment you realize you were wrong, you shut your eyes hoping it will be a false vision and when you open your eyes, things will be back to the vision that you felt comfortable with.

I'm going to be thirty in 4 months and it seems the lessons just keep rolling in, and the funny thing is they are rolling in so quickly that it's almost like I'm back in school, trying to figure out a way to remember it all and hopefully not forget anything for the next test.  Every day there are people who change your life in a way you notice right away or maybe don't notice until they are gone, or maybe it's just a gradual change you grow to appreciate. We have friends, we have family, we have coworkers, classmates, lovers, husbands, wives, girlfriends, boyfriends......each one of these people leave a mark; good, bad, unforgettable, memorable, painful.  We don't get to choose what kind of mark they leave with us, we just make the choice to keep them or let them go no matter what or why or when.  We make the choice to take a chance on allowing someone who starts as a complete stranger become a part of our life.  We may keep them at a distance for awhile playing it safe to see if they will bite or not, we may naturally just let them see all the chapters right away because for some reason they let you be yourself and make you feel comfortable enough to do so.  In times like this we don't worry about what they might do with that advantage of getting you to let your guard down, trust them, hope they won't make you regret letting them see the real you so quickly.

I find that the fear of being an open book has overcome me greatly due to experiences with people that I never questioned, that I took risks with.  I've closed many chapters making them almost unattainable ... I've kept the chapters attainable to a rare few keeping the faith that they won't let me down, making sure that they are deserving of it. Unfortunately some took the chapters and ran, others still keep them quite sacred.  Being a cancer and all, I am surprised to find these disappointments a relief.... Relieved that some things aren't what they seem, some people are so far from where you placed them in your mind that it becomes a humorous disappointment instead of a painful one.  Relieved because you know you have been the best person you could be and just because people may not appreciate that or reciprocate that, doesn't mean you are doing anything wrong or anything in question:

It simply means that maybe I was wrong about people but at the end of the day, I was never wrong about myself, about my choices, about who I have been for the people in my life and that I will never be wrong in who I will continue to be or who I will grow to become for people who choose to be a part of my life. 

Things happen, people come and go perhaps to love you, to hate you, to distract you, to comfort you, to teach you, to listen to you, to need you, to want you, to hurt you or simply just to help you grow.  Embracing the reason, the experience, the lesson is the only way to keep looking forward, to never look back with regret and to allow each person you meet along the journey to leave their mark ---- helping to keep your eyes open to all the possibilities you might otherwise miss if your eyes had been wide shut.

Still here...

Wow...it's been two months since I have posted anything and let me just say I am sure not keeping my end of the bargain here. There is so much to catch you up on but unfortunately I have a task to accomplish in 1o minutes and let's be honest I need WELL more than 10 minutes to catch you up on 2 months worth of activity.

I will say this, I have stuck to my new years resolution very nicely "no plan is the best plan" and I have been taking more time to self-reflect which has opened up some areas of work that I tend to well....work on :o).  It's March now and spring is definitely in the air, with the temperature at a beautiful 79 degrees and with the amount of new clients pouring into my inbox, wedding season is in full bloom.  I don't take this for granted, but I sure do let it suck the life out of me.

Well...Happy Ash Wednesday everyone and I will be back soon XOXO

New Year, New Perspective....New Me

10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1.................Happy New Year! Bittersweet I must say, but at the core of my inner most being nothing really feels wrong.  I had a few different ways I could have welcomed 2011 and while I quite literally almost told myself to crawl in bed with my main man Oscar, I found myself saying, "NO! Get up this is your last New Years in your 20's. Celebrate."

I kept dreading the New Year...I mean the thought of it literally just made me feel so down. Anyone who asked me what I was doing for New Years most likely regretted it because all they got was an earful of Debbie Downer (which typically isn't me).  And EVERYONE who knows me also knows that regardless of my mood I most likely would have had a plan for this night at least a month in advance...it's what I do:  I PLAN. And with that being said, I have decided to plan no longer thanks to a great friend of mine who consistently yells at me to stop planning everything. "No Plan Is The Best Plan" - my new motto. And oddly my horoscope also went parallel with this new perspective by stating I should not commit to anything on New Years Eve but to just take the day as it comes and trust me I did just that.

I got myself dressed and ready to go with only ONE FOR SURE plan I was determined to keep: Dinner with mom and dad. I hadn't enjoyed a New Years Eve dinner with my parents in at least 10 years; always going off and planning other things seemingly more important at the time.  However the older I've gotten, and the experiences I've endured have matured my perspective on what should be compromised and given up and what shouldn't be.

After dinner, I decided I shouldn't retire before midnight and headed to my friends Nichole and Brett's home where they were hosting everyone.  And while I was really still just not feeling the whole idea, the moment I opened the door and saw my friend Kristina with a big smile on her face as she told me, "Guess What?!?!?!? I'm pregnant!" I suddenly knew I was right where I was supposed to be.  Nothing else mattered anymore as Ashley and Elissa smiled big and hugged me, Nichole walked by carrying baby Charlotte to bed, and little Peyton ran by making some silly squeal. It's funny how the things I thought would be hard for me to engulf myself in turned out to be 100% what I needed.  I hugged Mike and Kristina and congratulated them, rubbed Elissa's belly which I later after much thought renamed Baby Bear because SweetPea was too girly :o). The house was filled with family, friends, new life, love, innocence and an overwhelming sense of relief --- like everything was how it should be.

I thought back one year picturing us all in Vegas and how much has changed:
1. Chris and Elissa are now married and expecting a baby boy this spring
2. Heather and JJ are now married expecting their first baby in just a couple months
3. Emma, Charlotte, Harlow, Gretchen, Devan, all came into the world
4. Matt and Stephanie will be married in 2011


The reality is that life happens and it happens fast. After 365 days, life is different.  I had an interesting 365 days, none of which I would change for a single second.  I've laughed and I've cried, I've said hello to new amazing people and I've said good bye in a few different forms.  Where I've closed the book on parts of my life, I will open another book.  I learned so much in 2010 and while I didn't learn it ALL I DID learn a very heavy lesson:

Don't sweat the small stuff because for every moment you spend sad or angry is a moment of happiness you take away from yourself.  Life will never be what you THINK it should be, it's going to throw you curve-balls and trust me you will swing and miss...but that doesn't mean you should sit on the bench and not play the game at all.  While I still am experiencing moments of my past and assume I probably will for awhile...I'm ok with that.  A lot of people say to let go of the past which I don't agree with because my past is what got me here, the present is what will make me in the future.  I always thought I had my life figured out, always PLANNED where I should be and life pretty much threw me all curve-balls to prove a point.  NOTHING GOES ACCORDING TO PLANNED! So aside from me letting life takes its course, I have learned the hardest lesson I think there is to learn:  acceptance. If you can accept things and people for what and who they are, you don't have to work so hard at figuring out what is already plain to see.  Accept who you are also and where you are and if you can't? Then adjust...adjust and make the changes you need to so that you can.  So as I look forward into 2011 I can do nothing but smile; smile because I have more friends bringing new life in this world, I have friends starting lives together in marriage, I have my health, I have the people who matter most surrounding me, I have an amazing job, I have a home and while it's scary........I smile because I have no idea what is in store for me.


So here's to the year of unlimited surprises with the people who have changed my life...one day at a time!